Sunday, July 31, 2005

A common theme of my dreams

This observation might not be significant, but it is worthy of exploring due to the frequency of my dream theme. This morning I had an ambiguous dream, in the dream amid of all the happenings, I remember a scene that I checked my purse and found out there is nothing in my purse, my wallet isn't there, is gone. I did not feel any emotional worry or concern, but since missing purse is such a frequent scene in my dream, I like to know what can be made of this?

The interpretation might be, I am unconsciously worry about my finance, or I am longing for achieving financial success. C Jung said that dreams are, after all, compensations for the conscious attitude. Since I do not deliberately think about my finance or my success during waking hours, the worry and concern show up on my dreamscape, because I suspect it is dormant and alive in my subconscious awareness.

The realm of unconscious is fascinating. They are there, 24-hours, dormant, quitely influencing our daily life from decision that we made, attitude, likes, dislikes, habitual behaviors to our personality due to our unique personal experiences throughout thousands of incarnations.

Friday, July 29, 2005

"Men, know yourself and you will know the gods and the universe"

I am pleased with my meditative practice. Every morning, like a clockwork, I will wake up between 4:30 and 5:00, and get a good one hour meditation. The quality of meditation is not entirely consistent, but my mental stamina seems to get better.

Meditation is a method of mental house-cleaning. I treasure every opportunity to meditate. I have set up a routine, one in the morning and another in the lunch hour. I feel a sense of clarity and energy after each session.

Meditation is loving oneself enough to deliberately taking time to relax the body and clear the mind, it is self caring. There is a temple of God within oneself. Only when one still one's mind, the magic presence can reveal itself.

"Man, know yourself, and you will know the Gods and the Universe"

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

The benefits of Lucid dreaming

Understanding the benefits of lucid dreaming, extracted from "The Sun and the Shadow" serve as an inspiration for my continuing cultivation of lucid dream. I don't have even a single lucid dream for the last six-month period when I started this project. Hopefully by understanding the benefits will propel me continuing my experiment.

Lucid dream provides a person with an experiential base for seeing all of the cosmos as "lucid", that is, ultimately composed of energy and light, rather than dense, physical matter.

Lucid dreaming provides a person with a basis for cultivation an "energy consciousness" in his own mind.

Through lucid dreaming a person can advance toward the further cultivation of intuition.

Through lucid dreaming, a person can transfer the quality of mental lucidity into waking state.

Through lucid dreaming, a person can learn to sense more quickly and clearly any negaive forces that may be approaching and can learn how to get out of harm's way more quickly.

Through lucid dreaming a person will often feel great surges of positive energy upon returning to the waking state.

Through repeated experiences of lucid dreaming, a person is increasingly motivated to develop a "transformational consciousness"

In the lucid dreaming state a person can see clearly the direct relationship between his own thoughts and his manifestable reality.

Lucid dreaming can provide people with a natural experience of ecstasy.

Monday, July 18, 2005

Evil for evil, eye for an eye! - Dreams

I am in Western cowboy setting. I am lying in a bed of a room, next to the room is a cowboy gathering place. There are two cowboys arguing. I hear very noisy yelling of each other and then explosive sound of gunfire. Then comes children crying and screaming. All this time, I am staying right where I am, as if whatever happens do not concern me.

Then the scene changed, I am now at home. I have several guests, we all looking out of my backyard and appreciating many beautiful flower pots that we planted. I open the screen door, and I am surprised to see menacing, dark and heavy stormy weather outside. I don't know why, my heart sink and I feel a sense of uneasiness with this climate. I quickly closed the door.

I then find myself lying down on the floor of grand train station. I see many people passing by me and do not notice that I am lying on the floor. That is a strange feeling, they seem to not care that I am on the floor.

I am taking a bus tour to Chinese Temple with a woman that I don't quite know. I don't remember the detail of the tour, but remember the lady told me she want to try one of the herbal remedies offered in Temple. According to her, using the herb can make you invinsible, healthy and young looking forever. I ask her name and phone number so that I can call her later to see if the herb work. She hand me a piece of paper with many writing on it. I asked, which is your name, she said "Lanker", a Chinese biblical name..

These were dreams of absolute nonsense, at least feel like it. Although I can't say for sure. The I who appeared in the first and third episode clearly demonstrated the relationship of cause and effect. I was indifferent on what was happening in the gathering place, and I was treated indifferently while I was lying on the floor of train station when I was homeless! Evil for evil, eye for an eye. It is instant karma! Then the last espidoe of Chinese biblical name? I don't know how my subconscious got that idea!

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Mind Project out to Beach

I woke up 5:00 am and worked on my one-hour meditation. Follow Kenneth's example, I finished my meditation by 6:00 am. I then fell back to sleep and all the while, suggesting I will have a vivid lucid dream.

Well, after a short while, I felt vibration in my body, slowly I floated up to the ceiling of my room. I can clearly see the granite texture and movement of ceiling when I passed through it, the images is sharp and clear. As I ascended, and floated back and forth, I was also gaining speed for the final push out of the room and onto an expansive beach. While I was levitating in higher altitude, I see bright blue beach umbrellas dotted on that sandy beach. While I was gazing down the scene, the images started to fade. I looked at the alarm clock, it was 6:30 am, only half an hour passed when I got back to sleep.

I was aiming for lucid dream but experienced astral project instead. Nonethless, I am happy with the result. One thing stand out on this projection is the clarity of the images. I have floated in my bedroom many times, but never have I noticed the texture and movement of ceiling when I passed through it. I also noticed distinctly the gaining of speed and the bright blue color.

Friday, July 15, 2005

Hope for lucid dreaming rekindled!

I still don't have any luck in lucid dreaming. Last weekend, I borrowed a book from Library, The Sun and the Shadow, when I got the book, I just mentally brushed off as another lucid dreaming book like others. All the books that I read, either author was extremely talented and lucid dreaming came naturally for them or author presented the techniques that I followed to the dot, and I still don't get it after many months trying.

A meditator himself, Kenneth Kelzer suggested using meditation as a springboard for lucid dreaming. He will have one hour early morning meditation, followed by giving himself suggestion that he would have a lucid dreaming upon returning to sleep. He was successful for about once every two weeks. That is a great idea. I myself also do early morning meditation about 4 or 5 times a week. After I read a couple of chapters, I have tremendous hope for the possibility of lucidity in my dream.

"Expect nothing, be ready for anything", that is the attitude.

Monday, July 11, 2005

Sculpting workshop! A Dream

Sculpting workshop!

This morning, I woke up 5:30am to practice my one hour meditation. I finished meditation at 6:30am, and intended to lie down for just 5 to 10 minutes.

Within that 10 minutes, I dreamed of attending a sculpting workshop. There were many people attending the workshop, we were all assigned a boarding room. When finished the workshop, I strolled down the various room to look at other people's work (but I have no impression of what they were) . While leisurely walking, I suddenly realized that I did not have my purse with me, I thought of going back to my room where I stayed overnight, but I forgot how to get there.

So, I walked and thought of what to do next. Then I stumbled into a huge auditorium and saw many people working on their sculpture. I suddenly noticed that all the way to the top of the ceiling, there was my purse, billboard sized, had James picture and my credit cards layout just like when I open my purse. So, I walked in and felt elated. As I walked closer, the image disappeared. That was not my purse after all.

The scene then changed. I was lying on a baby crib, there were wooden bars on all sides. I distinctly heard two women talking next to my bed, I struggled to hold on the wooden bar and tried to get up to see who's talking, but I can't, I was in a state of paralysis. Although I heard the talking loudly, and able to distinguish two women's voice, but I can't comprehend what they were talking, it might as well that they were talking Hebrew. While I struggled to get up, I woke up, there was only 10 minutes passed since I lied down after my meditation.

Now, what would happen if I was lucid when I saw my billboard sized purse in the auditorium. I would probably say to myself, how absurd, how can my purse be so big? I must be dreaming. well, if my conscious mind kicked in at that moment, I might tell myself, "don't worry, it's only a dream, my purse is safely right next to my bed. Since I am in a dream, let's see what others do." I will stroll down the auditorium at ease, enjoy and appreciate other people's sculpting. Lucid dream can change an anxious situation to a blissful enjoyment of ordinary thing.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Meditation, a lifetime pursuit!

Meditation, means to a lifetime pursuit!

I have now established a good meditation practice. I will go to bed as usual and instinctly I will wake up around 5:30 am and do a one-hour meditaiton before my daily routine. This morning, I have 1 and 1/2 hour meditation from 5:30 am to 7:00 am due to the flexible hour on weekend. During lunch hour I will practice another 45-minute.

The quietness of mind is an on and off thing. Depending on the complexity and incidents of my daily life, the images of the day just float in and out of my consciousness spontaneously. I can't say I have absolute control of my thought, as that will take many year's practice to reach it. But even in the ancient time when life is simpler and there weren't many technological distractions, it will still take a lifetime to reach mastership.

I realize that every session of meditation is like a rung of ladder to higher level of consciousness. This morning, at the end of meditation, I experienced a funny scenarios that I chuckled when I came back to my senses.

"...There is a house, I open a patch of wall and said, Dad, here is your walk in area, and drill another smaller wall and said, Mom, here is yours, but myself, I just walk confidently in a grand door to the house...."

What was that about? I was not talking particularly to anyone, but I saw myself a lively, cute and energetic young woman with white t-shirt and blue skirt ( very much unlike my usual self).