Jason, the tiger - A Dream

I got up at 5:00 am, the meditation was not going well, the images, random thoughts came in and out of my conscious mind. I decided to lie down for 15 minutes before the alarm sounding at 6:30 am. After several minutes later, I had this familiar swirling sensation around my head area, then I floated round and round. I found myself in a warehouse, I was walking down aisle between rows and rows of racks that hanged industrial, heavy duty clothes. Not a soul was around. After a while, I felt a little bored of seeing rows of clothes, so I decided to fly up to the ceiling. When I got up there, I also saw racks of khaki Jeans and coats, all made of same heavy duty material...

I lied down the second time... My mom and I went shopping in a department store. The store was not very organized and people work there have very strange behavior. I came up and asked a clerk some question, I got a blank stare back from him.

My mom went to hardware section, she picked up something mechanical, some kind of unusual instrument, the kind of thing that my son will be interested but definitely not my mother. But I went along with the item and curious about the use of this equipment. We were waiting in the check out counter, I suddenly realized that my purse was not with me. I walk back several steps and tried to think and then I immediately got back to the check out line and found the purse was right there on the floor next to the counter. But I did not see mom. She might have paid the item and left.

The day is getting late and dark, I was worried. I went to the parking lot and called her many times, but there was no response anywhere. I then met a girl about 10 year old. I asked her if she was familiar with this area. While we were talking, I saw a mass image of gold and black stripes moving my way. At that time the girl said, "please meet Jason, the tiger." My heart skipped several beats, I was frightened. Somehow I managed to remember projecting love to the tiger. The tiger now running and jumping around us, I kept at the mantra of projecting love. Then suddenly the tiger jumped right in front of me and unexpectedly put its massive head toward my belly. It was just like my bird fluffy, he will lower his head when I touch him so that I can massage him. So, I touched the head and back of tiger, it felt like touching a carpet...

The 5 Daily Devotions -The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari - A Book

I am reading a book from Robin Sharma called: "Discover Your Destiny With the Monk Who Sold His Farrari". A book full of wisdom. The challenge for the seeker of truth is to dedicate ourselves to learning the process and staying with it until it becomes second nature. There are seven stages of Self-Awakening. Most of the people on the planet earth are in the stage 1. Let's see what are the seven stages: (I copied to my blogpage for my ongoing reference)

Stage 1 Living a lie (The Stage of Self-Betrayal)

Stage 2 The Choicepoint (The stage of Relasing Control and Breaking Your Chains

Stage 3 Awareness of Wonder and Possibility (Ths stage of Seeing with New Eyes)

Stage 4 Instruction From Masters (The Stage of Learning, Failing and Preparation)

Stage 5 Transformation and Rebirth ( The Stage of Emptying and Refilling)

Stage 6 The Trial ( The Stage of Testing and Conifrmation)

Stage 7 The Great Awakening of SELF ( The Stage of Fearlessness)

These are simple daily ritual that we can practice to reach that enlightening stage.

The 5 Daily Devotions:

• Devote yourself to rising at 5 A.M. each and every morning. Those who get up early are those who get the best from life.
• Devote yourself to setting aside the first sixty minutes of your day as your "Holy Hour." This is your sacred time to do the inner work required to help you become your best. Use this period to read from the wisdom literature, to meditate or pray, to reflect on the state of your life and the progress of your dreams in your journal, or to think deeply about what must unfold over the coming hours of the day in order for you to feel it was a successful one. Performing this ritual daily will help you to shine brightly in the world and live at your highest.
• Devote yourself to displaying a standard of care, compassion, and character well beyond what anyone could ever imagine from you. In doing so, you will be doing your part to aid in the building of a new world.
• Devote yourself to displaying a standard of excellence at work far higher than anyone would ever expect from you. Abundance and fulfillment will flow back to you.
• Devote yourself to being the most loving person you know and thinking, feeling, and acting as though you are one of the greatest people currently on the planet (because you are). Your life will never be the same and you will bless many lives.

Excerpt from "Discover Your Destiny with the Monk Who Sold His Ferrari" by Robin Sharma

The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of confidence but where he stands at time of challenge and controversy" ----Martin Luther King Jr.

Valet Parking - A Dream

I had trouble doing my meditation this morning, after about 1 and 1/2 hours struggle to still my mind, I gave up and went back to sleep. Then I had the following fragmented dream.

I was working in my office, and using this bulky, ugly, old and dusty computer at my work. I felt a little distressed of working on that computer. When the day was over, we were all line up in the parking lot, waiting for bellboy to pick up our car because our company have valet parking service. I was nervously fumbling into my purse to get my ID and my ticket. I sensed the unusual nature of valet parking, but just like any other dreams, I did not question it's validity. So the valet parking at my company seemed to be normal, but I had a little sense of annoyance of having to wait for my car.

note: As to Calea Z experiment, I took six capsules on Friday night, it was about 3,000 milligram, but I had no lucid dream experience, as a matter of fact, I did not recall any dream at all, let alone lucid! Apparently, Calea Z of dream herb has no effect on me. I guess I will have to learn lucid dreaming on my own.

Calea Z, "Leaf of God"?

Eight months ago when I started to learn Lucid Dreaming, I cam across websites and some books mentioning Calea Z, a dream herb, that is also called "Leaf of God". I managed to get 24 capsules just several days ago.

I tried three nights in a row taking 2 capsules the first two nights and 3 capsules the third night. Guess what? I had no recall of any dreams at all during these three nights. It is like my memory was being wiped out to a clean slate. This herb was supposed to help me to have vivid, lucid dream. My experience was completely opposite of what it supposed to do. I was really disappointed. Well, after the uneventful third night, I decided to give it a rest for three days, and I will pick it up again on Friday and will increase the dosage to 4 capsule.

Some people also mentioned about having a sense of well-being and clarity of consciousness after taking Calea Z, but I simply could not experience anything good or bad.

I don't know this herb that I bought is really Calea Z, but I did open the capsule and tasted a tiny bit of it, and it was very bitter just as some books have described.

Tomorrow, Friday, I will resume taking the "Leaf of God" and see what happens.

The first small taste of lucid experience

I got up 4:55 am, had about 1 1/2 hours meditation to 6:30 am , I then intended just to rest a few minutes. Within the next 15 minutes, I had a dream that I believe I was lucid and was able to control and direct my thought. I woke up feeling odd, happy and could not stop laughing at myself.

I drove to the direction of international airport. I parked my car and for some reason I needed to get something in the car, I looked up and down the parking lot and could not find it. I thought that was strange cause I just parked it a minute ago.

I walked into the busy terminal, crowds were all over the place, people were standing and walking shoulder to shoulder, at that point, I gained some lucidity and purposely touched the luggage, travel bags and thought to myself, "It is so real". I suddenly remember the book that I read about lucid dream and what people do when they are lucid. I decided I want to kiss someone. So, I searched male passengers that is at least ok-looking and find one person standing there as if he was waiting for someone. He had mustache and not bad looking, I approached him and kissed him on the lips, I really did not feel anything particular except the bristle touch of his mustache.

I stood in the terminal a while trying to figure out what I wanted to do next that I was lucid. I thought I like to fly. In the instant that I out-stretched my arms, off I went flying. I flew to the top corner of the terminal, looking down enjoying hustles and bustles of frenzy activities below. Knowing that nothing can hurt me, I purposely flew past the concrete walls of the terminal and landed on the other side. And then I thought to do the 360 degree spin over just to see how it felt, while I was spinning I also started to wake up.

I woke up smiling. Wow, that was the first lucid dream I have experienced.

"The Justice On the Grass" A Book by Dina Temple-Raston

I have read a book, "The Justice On the Grass" recounting the 1994 Rwanda Massacre by Dina Temple-Raston. It is a story of Tribunal's media trial. A must read for people interested in the unfolding and underlying historical causes of genocide in Rwanda.

Millions of people were swayed by decades of hatred and media incitement, Rwanda was a Dante's Inferno. The incident was so profound, even now when anyone mention Rwanda, genocide is the first thought that pop into people's mind. And this happened just a decade ago in the late Twentieth Century, a recent history.

In the book, the author indicated that Nazi's extermination of Jews took about nine years to manifest, a million lives were lost, but Rwanda lost about 800,000 people in a span of only 100 days. The killing were quite efficient. It was like entire nation was hypnotized by the sphere of hatred and completely lost their senses in the mindless killing spree, humanity at it's darkness.

For me who is in the path of wanting to know the truth of the universe, I often ask, "Have these people learned a lesson in their lifetime?" "Are these experiences necessary for the growth of souls?" I don't know the true answer, but from want I have learned and experienced, I know that all pain and suffering are life lessons in disguise, it meant to be a spiritual test; just like the test in which I am now undergoing.

Why are we here? An article from Infinitebeing.com

The Age-Old Questions of Life
“Why are we here?”
“What is the meaning of life?”

According to basic spiritual principles, we are individual expressions of Infinite Being and we are here to experience life. Each person is unique, and our purpose on Earth is to experience life from our own unique perspective. We are the eyes and ears, so to speak, of Infinite Being. You are here to experience your uniqueness, and to experience it as fully as possible. That way, you learn as much as possible from the experience of being who you are in this particular incarnation.

The Paradoxes

It is a paradox that everyone is here for the same reason and yet everyone has an individual purpose. Everyone is here to experience life as deeply as possible, and yet your individual purpose is to explore your unique character. Everyone, therefore, has an unique function within the infinite variety of Creation. Another paradox is the question of destiny versus freewill. People seem to have freewill, and yet, if destiny exists, wouldn’t pre-destiny cancel freewill? Not exactly. Here’s how it works. You planned your overall path through life before you were born. That life plan is your overall destiny, but the details of life leave plenty of room for freewill. You could even use your freewill to change your whole life plan, but then, why would you want to change your own life plan? The fact that your physical brain doesn’t remember your own pre-made plan doesn’t hinder the fact that it continues to unfold as time goes by. Your inner self, your soul, remembers your plan perfectly. One of the functions of your inner self is to give you hunches that you can follow. These hunches, when acted upon, assist you to explore your life’s potential to the fullest effect.

Meditators Have More Fun

Regular meditation keeps you in tune with your inner self and helps to guarantee that you get the most out of life by being in the right places at the right times. Then synchronicity can unfold in the form of meetings and events which support your life’s purpose. At a soul level, you are a member of an extended family of many hundreds of people. All of these people know and love you, so there are always ample opportunities available for incarnation through parents that you already know at a soul level. People usually choose lives where they can surround themselves with members of their extended soul family. People in the same soul family share common themes. They are in tune with your consciousness and therefore interested in the same issues and experiences in life. Before the Veil of Birth When it was time for you to incarnate into this life, you viewed several alternatives, including several possible sets of parents. Your final choice offered you the best opportunity to explore the activities and issues that you have been experiencing.

How much detail goes into planning an entire lifetime?

Destiny exists for the main events in your life – the major choices, events and connections in your life. Important relationships are carefully planned so that they have the best chance of happening. Your parents and your environment are chosen for how they will mold your life in the direction that you wish to explore. In the pre-life planning stage, you actually get to see how everything will turn out as you explore different alternatives and scenarios. Then you make your big choice. You say, “I’ll take Fred and Freda Smith as parents. I’ll be their baby boy, starting in 9 months when I get born. Until then I’ll hang around them in spirit, at least on and off, until it’s time to emerge and become a baby person. Then I’ll grow up in their family, attending that local elementary school. When they move to Phoenix as planned, I’ll go to high school there and meet my old buddy, who’ll be called Freddie, and he’ll be the same age as me. Sylvia’s family will move into town when I’m sixteen, and being her boyfriend will start to shape the direction of the rest of my life. We’ll go to the same college together and explore the idea that she will need me to support her while she goes on to medical school to become a doctor.” And so on, and so on, as the plan unfolds.

Themes, Issues, Adventures

Personal themes are planned for exploration in life, as well as soul family themes. Also, there are cultural themes and global issues, especially in today’s growing global awareness. One theme that society has been developing over the last few decades is the issue of liberation from the imbalance of a patriarchal society. At the same time, an even larger shift has been taking place – the shift from a consciousness of separation to one of integration. Separation of Consciousness has been the theme for thousands of years. We have separated into tribes, then countries and empires. We have separated ourselves by race, sex and religion. We have even separated our own consciousness, focusing it further into the external world and away from the inner light which is the very source of our consciousness.

One of the first differences that will be noticed as the world evolves towards integrated consciousness is that people will care more about their work. Most people today see their work as a means to an end, as a way to pay the bills and maybe get ahead a little. Tomorrow, people will work at what they love and they will care deeply about the quality of service that they provide, because they will care for their customers. Of course, there are people who work just like that today, but they are in the minority. Tomorrow, it will become the new standard, the new work ethic. Loving what you do and doing what you love. Basically, even when you’re knee-deep in issues, remember that the purpose of life is to transform reality and to have fun doing it.

Projecting over Mediterranean towns - A Mind Travel Experience

I was not meditating too well, my mind was not as quite as yesterday morning's session, after about 45 minutes, I got back to sleep and remembered to affirm " I am dreaming....". After a little while, the vibration started and off I went floating up and out of my bedroom window. I floated in an expansive space, and saw a city dotted with red and white buildings.

I was conscious and aware and remember myself silently affirming that I like to go to Himalaya mountain. But my intention did not translate into changing my travel direction. I was still floating and observing the scenery down below. Gradually I descended down and landed on the street next to a small booth selling animal toys. While I was landing I saw two toy tigers locking head to head fighting with each other and when I landed next to it, I said to them "stop fighting" as if they are real. As soon as I landed, I was back to my physical senses and the scenery faded.

When I was back to my senses, I immediately labeled the city that I was traveling as Mediterranean cities. Well, the strange thing is I have never been in Mediterranean Sea or cities. In my conscious awareness, I do not know how they look like, but I was certain that was the city in that mind projection.

I like to point out that my experience is more like mind projection than astral travel. when most people astral project, they have the conscious awareness of their body, some people can see and feel their hands, feet and other part of body, and they often turn around on top of the ceiling and are able to look at their physical body lying on bed.

For me, I never feel any connection with a body, I never see or even desire to see myself. The way of my out-of-body experience feels more like energy, mind or spirit that was traveling. My awareness at mind project feels exactly the same as when I am physically aligned.

With many mind project experiences, I have long realized that the essence of me is not the eyes, face, hands or figure that I am presenting to the world. These are but the temporary shelter for my soul, the essence of me lies in my consciousness, my awareness.

Like many of my mind projects, I do not have control of where I am going. I just go with the flow. And even if I stated in my mind where I like to go, it does not change anything, so basically I am not in charge of my mind project.

What if I can be in full control of my flight plan? Then the world, my backyard, and the universe, my playground.

In a thousand years or in an instant

A week has passed. During the week, I am following my routine. I am reading a book called: "The Mind Accelerator". Not very surprisingly the first phase is about mind conditioning and identity restructuring. I am familiar with using affirmation in alpha and Theta brainwave state to reprogram our mind for optimal performance. After so many years engaging in self improvement program , I believe there is a common thread on all the self help program. The common denominator is meditation.

Before meditation can be effective, one must undergo a good program to understand how life works, what is the force behind all the seeming accidents, illnesses, violence, tragedies, traumas as well as happiness, fulfillment, peace and joy. In this sense, I am grateful for Jonathan Parker's Enlightenment Series and The Pathway for Mastership program. They lay the foundation and instill in my consciousness the growing seeds of knowledge and wisdom. With the seeds planted solidly underground, the meditation serve as water, sunlight and fertilizer.

With last several years self training, I am able to maintain conscious awareness in that state for one and half hours, the maximum for me is two hours. The quality of meditation is just as important as the quantity of meditation. I admit, there was always an uphill battle for stilling one's mind. With the hustles and bustles of modern society, the stillness of the mind is a much more difficult task to do than the ancient time when life was much simpler.

Meditation is a slow but sure way to enlightenment. Each session of meditation pierces a layer of illusions of what we call life. Gradually and eventually, our true self shines all around, we are one with the infinite universal mind. Yes, it might take a thousand years, or it may happen in a instant.

Mind project into industrial compound

After one and half hour's meditation, I layed down and relax, within may be several minutes, the familiar sensation of vibration forcefully eject my consciousness up into the air, this time the energy seemed to be stronger than usual, I was not just float, I was gripped in a powerful energy field that snapped me out of my body into the direction of my bedroom ceiling.

Before I hit the ceiling, I halted abruptly before it, and I saw images I can only describe that it is like a sponge magnified in 10,000 times or so. There are huge space between the elements of ceiling material, the ceiling is essentially not as solid looking as it usually look. My consciousness then suddenly back off from celing and then speed up to approach it several times.

I got brave the last time, I stretch out my hand to touch the ceiling, but I felt nothing, as if it is just an empty and hollow space. I then journey out of ceiling and into outdoor. I flew through the space and then I was landed in the area looked like industrial compound. I saw concrete boulders all over. Just when I thought, "what am I going to do in this place", I came back to my senses.

When I got back to my senses, I was contemplating the images that I saw of my bedroom ceiling. According to quantum physics, matter is energy, they are not just exchangeable, they are one and the same.

Last time that I mind projected, I saw the granite texture of my ceiling, this time of projection, I believe my consciousness has become more refined and aware, I saw the texture of ceiling as hollow like quantum physics's atom. Expansive space between the material. My astral hand is an energy field that can pass through the wall.

In the realm of astral is as in the realm of spirit, I am a spirit, a forceful energy field, that can fly through the wall and penetrate any solid material.

Carl Jung -Dreams, Memories, Reflections

I finally read Carl Jung's autobiography, "Memories, dreams and reflections". For years, Carl Jung's name and his works flashes in my mental screen many many times. Books of psychology, metaphysics and mythology all have Carl Jung's trademark in it, but I lacked the courage to read it because I thought it will be difficult for me to understand. It turned out that his biography is not theoretical, but full of his many interesting inner experiences. A very interesting and inspiring read. I personally can relate some of his dreams and mind project experiences

He was a giant in psychology for the early Twenties Century. It is absolutely a must read for people who are interested in psychology and mythology.

A live band, playing and singing of "The way we were" - Astral travel music

After one-hour meditation this morning, I went back to sleep affirming, and reaffirming, " I am lucid in my dream". About 15 to 20 minutes later, I heard live, full-band Jazz music playing as if I was there in the studio, I was enjoying it. When the Jazz is over, the band started playing the song "The way we were", there was loud applause from the audience when the singing just started. It was chorus, several singers taking turns to sing, it was beautiful and I was so moved that I was almost in tear in the middle of the singing. Gradually the song faded and I was back to my senses.

It was a very interesting experience, for the whole time I did not have any visual impression, I heard the band playing, the singer singing but I can't see them. It is possible that I was so absorbed with the music that I could not care less for seeing anything.

This is not a strange experience for me. Several times in the past, when I was mind projecting, I will hear music while I was floating in the air.

From this experience and many similar experiences that I have, I suspect the phenomenan has something to do with range of perception of a meditator. Now, we need to ask, what is reality? Are there any other reality except the waking reality? I can use analogy of radio tuning. There is whole range of radio stations that we can tune ourself in and listen to many different kinds of program, the waking reality is one station that our conscious mind can tune in. There are many levels of consciousness embodied in our mind. With training and practice, meditation broaden the range of perception and enables the mind to tune into other stations. In the sense, there is nothing mysterious about it.

When we quiet the mind, enter into a state of expanded awareness, we are always pleasantly surprized by the experience that we encounter. When I went back to sleep, I was expecting some kind of dream scenario, never have I expected a live band playing so beautifully, a very pleasant surprise indeed.

A common theme of my dreams

This observation might not be significant, but it is worthy of exploring due to the frequency of my dream theme. This morning I had an ambiguous dream, in the dream amid of all the happenings, I remember a scene that I checked my purse and found out there is nothing in my purse, my wallet isn't there, is gone. I did not feel any emotional worry or concern, but since missing purse is such a frequent scene in my dream, I like to know what can be made of this?

The interpretation might be, I am unconsciously worry about my finance, or I am longing for achieving financial success. C Jung said that dreams are, after all, compensations for the conscious attitude. Since I do not deliberately think about my finance or my success during waking hours, the worry and concern show up on my dreamscape, because I suspect it is dormant and alive in my subconscious awareness.

The realm of unconscious is fascinating. They are there, 24-hours, dormant, quitely influencing our daily life from decision that we made, attitude, likes, dislikes, habitual behaviors to our personality due to our unique personal experiences throughout thousands of incarnations.

"Men, know yourself and you will know the gods and the universe"

I am pleased with my meditative practice. Every morning, like a clockwork, I will wake up between 4:30 and 5:00, and get a good one hour meditation. The quality of meditation is not entirely consistent, but my mental stamina seems to get better.

Meditation is a method of mental house-cleaning. I treasure every opportunity to meditate. I have set up a routine, one in the morning and another in the lunch hour. I feel a sense of clarity and energy after each session.

Meditation is loving oneself enough to deliberately taking time to relax the body and clear the mind, it is self caring. There is a temple of God within oneself. Only when one still one's mind, the magic presence can reveal itself.

"Man, know yourself, and you will know the Gods and the Universe"

The benefits of Lucid dreaming

Understanding the benefits of lucid dreaming, extracted from "The Sun and the Shadow" serve as an inspiration for my continuing cultivation of lucid dream. I don't have even a single lucid dream for the last six-month period when I started this project. Hopefully by understanding the benefits will propel me continuing my experiment.

Lucid dream provides a person with an experiential base for seeing all of the cosmos as "lucid", that is, ultimately composed of energy and light, rather than dense, physical matter.

Lucid dreaming provides a person with a basis for cultivation an "energy consciousness" in his own mind.

Through lucid dreaming a person can advance toward the further cultivation of intuition.

Through lucid dreaming, a person can transfer the quality of mental lucidity into waking state.

Through lucid dreaming, a person can learn to sense more quickly and clearly any negaive forces that may be approaching and can learn how to get out of harm's way more quickly.

Through lucid dreaming a person will often feel great surges of positive energy upon returning to the waking state.

Through repeated experiences of lucid dreaming, a person is increasingly motivated to develop a "transformational consciousness"

In the lucid dreaming state a person can see clearly the direct relationship between his own thoughts and his manifestable reality.

Lucid dreaming can provide people with a natural experience of ecstasy.

Evil for evil, eye for an eye! - Dreams

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I am in Western cowboy setting. I am lying in a bed of a room, next to the room is a cowboy gathering place. There are two cowboys arguing. I hear very noisy yelling of each other and then explosive sound of gunfire. Then comes children crying and screaming. All this time, I am staying right where I am, as if whatever happens do not concern me.

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Then the scene changed, I am now at home. I have several guests, we all looking out of my backyard and appreciating many beautiful flower pots that we planted. I open the screen door, and I am surprised to see menacing, dark and heavy stormy weather outside. I don't know why, my heart sink and I feel a sense of uneasiness with this climate. I quickly closed the door.

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I then find myself lying down on the floor of grand train station. I see many people passing by me and do not notice that I am lying on the floor. That is a strange feeling, they seem to not care that I am on the floor.

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I am taking a bus tour to Chinese Temple with a woman that I don't quite know. I don't remember the detail of the tour, but remember the lady told me she want to try one of the herbal remedies offered in Temple. According to her, using the herb can make you invinsible, healthy and young looking forever. I ask her name and phone number so that I can call her later to see if the herb work. She hand me a piece of paper with many writing on it. I asked, which is your name, she said "Lanker", a Chinese biblical name..


These were dreams of absolute nonsense, at least feel like it. Although I can't say for sure. The I who appeared in the first and third episode clearly demonstrated the relationship of cause and effect. I was indifferent on what was happening in the gathering place, and I was treated indifferently while I was lying on the floor of train station when I was homeless! Evil for evil, eye for an eye. It is instant karma! Then the last espidoe of Chinese biblical name? I don't know how my subconscious got that idea!

Mind Project out to Beach

I woke up 5:00 am and worked on my one-hour meditation. Follow Kenneth's example, I finished my meditation by 6:00 am. I then fell back to sleep and all the while, suggesting I will have a vivid lucid dream.

Well, after a short while, I felt vibration in my body, slowly I floated up to the ceiling of my room. I can clearly see the granite texture and movement of ceiling when I passed through it, the images is sharp and clear. As I ascended, and floated back and forth, I was also gaining speed for the final push out of the room and onto an expansive beach. While I was levitating in higher altitude, I see bright blue beach umbrellas dotted on that sandy beach. While I was gazing down the scene, the images started to fade. I looked at the alarm clock, it was 6:30 am, only half an hour passed when I got back to sleep.

I was aiming for lucid dream but experienced astral project instead. Nonethless, I am happy with the result. One thing stand out on this projection is the clarity of the images. I have floated in my bedroom many times, but never have I noticed the texture and movement of ceiling when I passed through it. I also noticed distinctly the gaining of speed and the bright blue color.

Hope for lucid dreaming rekindled!

I still don't have any luck in lucid dreaming. Last weekend, I borrowed a book from Library, The Sun and the Shadow, when I got the book, I just mentally brushed off as another lucid dreaming book like others. All the books that I read, either author was extremely talented and lucid dreaming came naturally for them or author presented the techniques that I followed to the dot, and I still don't get it after many months trying.

A meditator himself, Kenneth Kelzer suggested using meditation as a springboard for lucid dreaming. He will have one hour early morning meditation, followed by giving himself suggestion that he would have a lucid dreaming upon returning to sleep. He was successful for about once every two weeks. That is a great idea. I myself also do early morning meditation about 4 or 5 times a week. After I read a couple of chapters, I have tremendous hope for the possibility of lucidity in my dream.

"Expect nothing, be ready for anything", that is the attitude.

Sculpting workshop! A Dream

Sculpting workshop!

This morning, I woke up 5:30am to practice my one hour meditation. I finished meditation at 6:30am, and intended to lie down for just 5 to 10 minutes.

Within that 10 minutes, I dreamed of attending a sculpting workshop. There were many people attending the workshop, we were all assigned a boarding room. When finished the workshop, I strolled down the various room to look at other people's work (but I have no impression of what they were) . While leisurely walking, I suddenly realized that I did not have my purse with me, I thought of going back to my room where I stayed overnight, but I forgot how to get there.

So, I walked and thought of what to do next. Then I stumbled into a huge auditorium and saw many people working on their sculpture. I suddenly noticed that all the way to the top of the ceiling, there was my purse, billboard sized, had James picture and my credit cards layout just like when I open my purse. So, I walked in and felt elated. As I walked closer, the image disappeared. That was not my purse after all.

The scene then changed. I was lying on a baby crib, there were wooden bars on all sides. I distinctly heard two women talking next to my bed, I struggled to hold on the wooden bar and tried to get up to see who's talking, but I can't, I was in a state of paralysis. Although I heard the talking loudly, and able to distinguish two women's voice, but I can't comprehend what they were talking, it might as well that they were talking Hebrew. While I struggled to get up, I woke up, there was only 10 minutes passed since I lied down after my meditation.

Now, what would happen if I was lucid when I saw my billboard sized purse in the auditorium. I would probably say to myself, how absurd, how can my purse be so big? I must be dreaming. well, if my conscious mind kicked in at that moment, I might tell myself, "don't worry, it's only a dream, my purse is safely right next to my bed. Since I am in a dream, let's see what others do." I will stroll down the auditorium at ease, enjoy and appreciate other people's sculpting. Lucid dream can change an anxious situation to a blissful enjoyment of ordinary thing.

Meditation, a lifetime pursuit!

Meditation, means to a lifetime pursuit!

I have now established a good meditation practice. I will go to bed as usual and instinctly I will wake up around 5:30 am and do a one-hour meditaiton before my daily routine. This morning, I have 1 and 1/2 hour meditation from 5:30 am to 7:00 am due to the flexible hour on weekend. During lunch hour I will practice another 45-minute.

The quietness of mind is an on and off thing. Depending on the complexity and incidents of my daily life, the images of the day just float in and out of my consciousness spontaneously. I can't say I have absolute control of my thought, as that will take many year's practice to reach it. But even in the ancient time when life is simpler and there weren't many technological distractions, it will still take a lifetime to reach mastership.

I realize that every session of meditation is like a rung of ladder to higher level of consciousness. This morning, at the end of meditation, I experienced a funny scenarios that I chuckled when I came back to my senses.

"...There is a house, I open a patch of wall and said, Dad, here is your walk in area, and drill another smaller wall and said, Mom, here is yours, but myself, I just walk confidently in a grand door to the house...."

What was that about? I was not talking particularly to anyone, but I saw myself a lively, cute and energetic young woman with white t-shirt and blue skirt ( very much unlike my usual self).