For over two months I had trouble reconciling Newmans Own account. I have gone over detail several times, and I thought there was no stone unturned, but January and February's account were still not reconciled! I started to feel stress and frustration.
Since I have read so many stories about dream incubation for problem solving, so I recited my intention and affirmation several nights hoping my dream can reveal the missing pieces. Night after night, I either dreamed something else or I simple did not rememeber my dream, the dream incubation method did not seem to work for me.
I did spent the last sunday afternoon go over another round of inspecting to make sure I did not miss any pieces, but with no close to solving the puzzle.
About two nights ago, after dinner, I thought it's about time for me to revisit the issue, and time was running out, I need to get this resolved before the year end of March 31's closing.
Once I settled, my gut feeling told me to go through a different approach to check the accuracy of my data, in less than 3 minutes, I found the discrepancy and problem for Janaury was immediately uncovered. I was elated! Then with this new found confidence, I then checked and adjusted the February's data, since some of the February's balance was carry over of January's reconciling items, therefore I knew immediately what should be there, and holy moly! I found the answer in less than another 3 minutes. The total time it took to reconciling was less than ten minutes. It was incredibly magical!
This isn't my first time using my subconscious for problem solving. Dream incubation may work, but in real life, I use what I called problem solving incubation. The only requirement for it to work is that I need to put enough effort and focus on the problem. Take the problem and think, calculate, manipulte the data, look at it in every angle, go through each minute detail, leave no stone unturn for a period of time and then let it go for a period of time. Without intensive and extensive information and focus, our subconscious will not have enough material to work on.
I have been using this method to solve this account many times. After I spent enough time on it, I will usually tell my friends that I will sleep on it. The answer usually come fairly quickly.
Friday, April 08, 2005
Face covered with mud - A Dream
We have a big family, live in a big house. We like to make fun of our neighbor. There is a old guy in our neightbor who can't walk. We decide to challenge him to get upstairs. The incentive for him to do that is that he gets to visit me. So, he finally gets upstair with a bunch of other people.
While they are up to where I stay, oh! no, I suddenly discover that my face is all covered with mud (kind of facial mask that ladies use to firm up the skin), and mud also inside of my mouth. I have a hard time to swallow, and now I am getting help from my mom to the sink to choke up the mud in my mouth, and then I find that the sink has plastic flat plate on the top, make it difficult to wash my face unless I dock down really low, an awkward position to be....then I woke up!
While they are up to where I stay, oh! no, I suddenly discover that my face is all covered with mud (kind of facial mask that ladies use to firm up the skin), and mud also inside of my mouth. I have a hard time to swallow, and now I am getting help from my mom to the sink to choke up the mud in my mouth, and then I find that the sink has plastic flat plate on the top, make it difficult to wash my face unless I dock down really low, an awkward position to be....then I woke up!
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Leaking house and earth school
"My son and I are in the city of Santa Monia. We are visiting a house, there are several people in the house. The house is old and leaking on the roof. Especially the rainy season. It is not a pleasant place to be. My son feels very annoyed that house is leaking everywhere, and I am trying to explain to him that the reason the house is leaking is because this was their Grandma's home, it is old and built long ago. A new house will not leak......"
The first question is why did we visit that house?
The second question is why did I have to explain and almost to the point of justify the fact of leaking house to my son? May be this is just an ordinary dream that like ramdom firing of our nerve system that does not worth a dime to ask why. Or may be there really is a meaning?
In our waking life, we sometimes have to compromise our position with that of others. To walk the path of spiritual development, I know very well that even the commonly called failure is not truly failure. Everything has its own timing. We will struggle, we will blunder, we will forget, we will lose despite of our best intention and our mightiest effort. One thing that keep me looking at myself and others situation with compassion and empathy is that "We are gods", only now that we are immersed in the humanly experience and forget our true identity.
The other day, I visited my dad in convalescent home. I saw many elderly people in wheel chairs, lying on bed in pain, need almost all assistance in every day living, and my dad is now using artificial means of tubing to sustain his life. All those scenes look miserable.
But on the other end, this life is only a parenthesis in our forever lasting eternal life, a drop in the ocean, a grain of sand on the beach, a blink of an eye.
This life, like any other lives that we lived is a giant school, our curriculum were predetermined before we enroll. Our teachers are many and everywhere, they could be parents, teachers in mini school, our children and even strangers. We learn through series interactions with others. Everyone has different curriculum and since we are all unique in our spiritual position, therefore the lessons are vast and varied. If we are all like school childrean, does it make sense to say "To err is human"? Of cause, otherwise we won't be here.
The first question is why did we visit that house?
The second question is why did I have to explain and almost to the point of justify the fact of leaking house to my son? May be this is just an ordinary dream that like ramdom firing of our nerve system that does not worth a dime to ask why. Or may be there really is a meaning?
In our waking life, we sometimes have to compromise our position with that of others. To walk the path of spiritual development, I know very well that even the commonly called failure is not truly failure. Everything has its own timing. We will struggle, we will blunder, we will forget, we will lose despite of our best intention and our mightiest effort. One thing that keep me looking at myself and others situation with compassion and empathy is that "We are gods", only now that we are immersed in the humanly experience and forget our true identity.
The other day, I visited my dad in convalescent home. I saw many elderly people in wheel chairs, lying on bed in pain, need almost all assistance in every day living, and my dad is now using artificial means of tubing to sustain his life. All those scenes look miserable.
But on the other end, this life is only a parenthesis in our forever lasting eternal life, a drop in the ocean, a grain of sand on the beach, a blink of an eye.
This life, like any other lives that we lived is a giant school, our curriculum were predetermined before we enroll. Our teachers are many and everywhere, they could be parents, teachers in mini school, our children and even strangers. We learn through series interactions with others. Everyone has different curriculum and since we are all unique in our spiritual position, therefore the lessons are vast and varied. If we are all like school childrean, does it make sense to say "To err is human"? Of cause, otherwise we won't be here.
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Dream as the experience of the soul
In the East, the cultivation of lucid dreaming has always been woven as an esoteric element into the religious practice of Hinduism, Buddhism, Taoism and the other various religious traditions that trace their roots back to these great sources. The Tibetan Buddhists (almost all of whom are in exile since the annexation of Tibet by China and the unsuccessful rebellion against Chinese rule in 1959, after which the Dalai Lama himself went into exile) have carried this tradition of lucid dream incubation to a state of great elaboration.
The Tibetan strain of Buddhist thought declares that the experience of the dream is one and the same as the experience of the soul after death. The Tibetans believe in successive reincarnation, and for them the soul is more often referred to as the entity-the continuity of personality and karma over successive lifetimes. It is this part of the total psychic being which experiences dreams while alive, and this part which goes right on dreaming after death.
For the Tibetans Buddhists, each time we sleep we experience the condition of the soul in our dream. If we were die in our sleep, we would simply continue the dreams we were having. Thus, for the Tibetans the ability to remain lucid and self-conscious in the dream state is a matter of the utmost religious importance and significance. Their belief is that in the great majority of cases people who have not meditated or developed themselves with some spiritual discipline die and are driven to reincarnate again out of terror, in a vain hope to escape from the increasing horrific dream-scape of the soul after death.
The Tibetan believe that through cultivating dream lucidity while alive, the entity can then perceive the Bardo Worlds for what they are. In doing so, the soul in the Bardo World dismisses the illusions of increasing horror as mere illusions-mere projections of unconscious energies into the illusions of dream. Having achieved this recognition and insight into the nature of life after death, such an enlightened soul can pass into total and complete union with the divine.
With such self-awareness, the discarnate soul can also choose to reincarnate and re-enter the world of human existence consciously as a "boddhisattva"- a being devoted to the enlightenment of all others and the consequent alleviation of all illusions of pain and misery. Some sects take the " Boddhisattva's Oath" to return until every sentient being is enlightened. Others to return until even the grass is enlightened, while still others swear to reincarnate with increasing clarity of consciousness and intent until even the stones are enlightened.
The Tibetan Buddhist exerceises for the acquisition of lucidity are many and varies. Almost all of them involve manipulating the environment of the dream in specific ways once lucidity has been achieved, and meditating on these activities while awake. In such a manner, over the course of a lifetime, the Tibetans believe that will and resolve are strengthened and the entity is prepared to reunite with God or reincarnate with equal consciousness.
---Dream Work from Jeremy Taylor
The Tibetan strain of Buddhist thought declares that the experience of the dream is one and the same as the experience of the soul after death. The Tibetans believe in successive reincarnation, and for them the soul is more often referred to as the entity-the continuity of personality and karma over successive lifetimes. It is this part of the total psychic being which experiences dreams while alive, and this part which goes right on dreaming after death.
For the Tibetans Buddhists, each time we sleep we experience the condition of the soul in our dream. If we were die in our sleep, we would simply continue the dreams we were having. Thus, for the Tibetans the ability to remain lucid and self-conscious in the dream state is a matter of the utmost religious importance and significance. Their belief is that in the great majority of cases people who have not meditated or developed themselves with some spiritual discipline die and are driven to reincarnate again out of terror, in a vain hope to escape from the increasing horrific dream-scape of the soul after death.
The Tibetan believe that through cultivating dream lucidity while alive, the entity can then perceive the Bardo Worlds for what they are. In doing so, the soul in the Bardo World dismisses the illusions of increasing horror as mere illusions-mere projections of unconscious energies into the illusions of dream. Having achieved this recognition and insight into the nature of life after death, such an enlightened soul can pass into total and complete union with the divine.
With such self-awareness, the discarnate soul can also choose to reincarnate and re-enter the world of human existence consciously as a "boddhisattva"- a being devoted to the enlightenment of all others and the consequent alleviation of all illusions of pain and misery. Some sects take the " Boddhisattva's Oath" to return until every sentient being is enlightened. Others to return until even the grass is enlightened, while still others swear to reincarnate with increasing clarity of consciousness and intent until even the stones are enlightened.
The Tibetan Buddhist exerceises for the acquisition of lucidity are many and varies. Almost all of them involve manipulating the environment of the dream in specific ways once lucidity has been achieved, and meditating on these activities while awake. In such a manner, over the course of a lifetime, the Tibetans believe that will and resolve are strengthened and the entity is prepared to reunite with God or reincarnate with equal consciousness.
---Dream Work from Jeremy Taylor
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Viruses! - some fragmented dreams
Viruses!
" My family need to do some kind of planning. We now live in a different house. I downloaded some software program earlier and have introduced some viruses that are now invading our house. I take a broom going around the house to get rid of viruses. When I am ready to dump the viruses outside of my house, there are two men and two women forcing entry to my home. They corner me and my mom, and claim that they are my sisters and my brother-in-laws. I know that they are imposters but don't know how to get rid of them.
Somehow, I manage to sneak past them to upstairs where my son is sleeping. I tell him the problem and we start to plot a plan to take them out. My son seems confident that we will be able to do it. But, very strangely, at that very moment I suddenly realize that I need to get up and record my dream and I wake up from it.....don't know what happen next. "
The dream happened in the middle of the night of 2:00 am. After I recorded the sketches of my dream, I thought of re-entry to the dream just to know how the story ends, so I went back to sleep and started where I left off and drifted off to oblivion.
By the time I got up at 6:30 am, I have several fragmented dreams that I could not recall.
Why dream seems to always has no definite ending? We usually wake up in the middle of hot pursuit by a monster, a fall into the dark canyon, lost direction and don't know where to turn, in my last case, plot a plan to take out enemies. Yep, there are no closures in dreams. It is open for our exploration. Wherever you turn, you are experiencing one of the parallel universes, and according to some mystics, there are infinite number of parallel universes exist simultaneously at any moment. Wherever you are, whatever you do, you are fine. "Life is but a dream!".
" My family need to do some kind of planning. We now live in a different house. I downloaded some software program earlier and have introduced some viruses that are now invading our house. I take a broom going around the house to get rid of viruses. When I am ready to dump the viruses outside of my house, there are two men and two women forcing entry to my home. They corner me and my mom, and claim that they are my sisters and my brother-in-laws. I know that they are imposters but don't know how to get rid of them.
Somehow, I manage to sneak past them to upstairs where my son is sleeping. I tell him the problem and we start to plot a plan to take them out. My son seems confident that we will be able to do it. But, very strangely, at that very moment I suddenly realize that I need to get up and record my dream and I wake up from it.....don't know what happen next. "
The dream happened in the middle of the night of 2:00 am. After I recorded the sketches of my dream, I thought of re-entry to the dream just to know how the story ends, so I went back to sleep and started where I left off and drifted off to oblivion.
By the time I got up at 6:30 am, I have several fragmented dreams that I could not recall.
Why dream seems to always has no definite ending? We usually wake up in the middle of hot pursuit by a monster, a fall into the dark canyon, lost direction and don't know where to turn, in my last case, plot a plan to take out enemies. Yep, there are no closures in dreams. It is open for our exploration. Wherever you turn, you are experiencing one of the parallel universes, and according to some mystics, there are infinite number of parallel universes exist simultaneously at any moment. Wherever you are, whatever you do, you are fine. "Life is but a dream!".
Friday, April 01, 2005
A time for everything!
Such a beautiful Friday afternnon in Southern California, so, I skip my work this afternoon to run some errands, picking up books from library, getting maps from Triple A office, reading a dream work book, and getting a hair cut. I feel great of doing all these and have actually accomplished a great deal in a short 3 hours.
Life is too short to be tying up ourselves constantly in the dull office work. I am actually planning to do this often to getting into the habit of occasional relaxation.
The book that I am reading is called "Dream Work-Techniques for Discovering the Creative Power in Dreams" by Jeremy Taylor. Very helpful book indeed. The author has extensive experience in working with groups of people interested in exploring their dreams. He noticed people that are enthusiastic and very positive toward their dream exploration often stop remembering their dream right after joining the group session. What he discovered is that too much emotional attachment for dream exploration may work against us.
That may explain why I have stopped remembering my dream for last several nights. But no matter! Rome is not built in one night! so take heart and relax, there is time for everything!
Life is too short to be tying up ourselves constantly in the dull office work. I am actually planning to do this often to getting into the habit of occasional relaxation.
The book that I am reading is called "Dream Work-Techniques for Discovering the Creative Power in Dreams" by Jeremy Taylor. Very helpful book indeed. The author has extensive experience in working with groups of people interested in exploring their dreams. He noticed people that are enthusiastic and very positive toward their dream exploration often stop remembering their dream right after joining the group session. What he discovered is that too much emotional attachment for dream exploration may work against us.
That may explain why I have stopped remembering my dream for last several nights. But no matter! Rome is not built in one night! so take heart and relax, there is time for everything!
Thursday, March 31, 2005
I forgot my key! - A Dream
"I live in a dormitory type of facility, the room has an automatic lock. I need to carry my key around all the time.
This morning, I go to bathroom to wash my face and I forget my key. I am very nervous because I just realize all of my make-ups are in the room. Since I always put make-up on every day, not putting on make-up is like going out in the world with bare feet. It is just not something that I do. It is really annoying and..... I could not remember the rest of the scenario. "
Dreams of being late, losing direction, forgetting important stuff seem to be common theme when I have slept more than my fair share.
"Is this a dream?"
This morning, I go to bathroom to wash my face and I forget my key. I am very nervous because I just realize all of my make-ups are in the room. Since I always put make-up on every day, not putting on make-up is like going out in the world with bare feet. It is just not something that I do. It is really annoying and..... I could not remember the rest of the scenario. "
Dreams of being late, losing direction, forgetting important stuff seem to be common theme when I have slept more than my fair share.
"Is this a dream?"
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
No news is not good news
For the last several days, I had difficult time getting into my dream routine. I will get up after the first interval and then unable to go back to sleep again. Therefore no news to report for my lucid dream training.
I often found some articles, or books in the Internet talking about lucid dreaming in seven days, lucid dreaming in 30 days , lucid dreaming in 20 minutes, and so on..... I now wonder, are these people really know anything about lucid dreaming? Or they may be just copy the material from others and they themselves do not practice what they preach. Writing a book in this age is not difficult. We all have all the worlds of material literally at our fingertip. From my personal experience, I don't think lucid dreaming can be mastered in 20 minutes, a weekend or even in a month. I myself have been practicing conscientiously for about 2 months and yet I can't even recall half of my dreams.
As one of the authors suggested, learning to dream consciously is like learning a new language. How long will it take to learn adequately a new language? A month? six month or may be a year? The fact of the matter is, it takes time, sometimes a considerable amount of time, as I now realized. Well, it is one of the skills that worth going after, I am sure of that.
"All things are of the substance of dreams", "Is this a dream?"
I often found some articles, or books in the Internet talking about lucid dreaming in seven days, lucid dreaming in 30 days , lucid dreaming in 20 minutes, and so on..... I now wonder, are these people really know anything about lucid dreaming? Or they may be just copy the material from others and they themselves do not practice what they preach. Writing a book in this age is not difficult. We all have all the worlds of material literally at our fingertip. From my personal experience, I don't think lucid dreaming can be mastered in 20 minutes, a weekend or even in a month. I myself have been practicing conscientiously for about 2 months and yet I can't even recall half of my dreams.
As one of the authors suggested, learning to dream consciously is like learning a new language. How long will it take to learn adequately a new language? A month? six month or may be a year? The fact of the matter is, it takes time, sometimes a considerable amount of time, as I now realized. Well, it is one of the skills that worth going after, I am sure of that.
"All things are of the substance of dreams", "Is this a dream?"
Saturday, March 26, 2005
House hunting - A Dream
This is a Saturday morning. I woke up from the loud noise of on-heater a few minutes before 4 1/2 hour interval of 6:00am , my mouse was dry, I went downstairs to turn the heater thermostat down, and back up to lay on the bed trying to remember my dreams. Nothing came up. I reset the alarm to 7:30am and went to bed again.
Mom, my two sisters were with me, we were on our way to see a house located in the state of Missouri. We took on a train ride very conveniently take us right to the house. I remember there was a conductor making conversation with us along the way, although the content was not clear. In order to prevent getting lost, my younger sister and mom was a team, the other sister and me was another team, taking care of each other. We got into the house, and inspected the layout, there were at least two bedroom downstairs, and bedrooms were situated adjacent to each other. We stayed over night to get a feel of this house. I remember seeing a compass made out of white piece of paper, with strange dial and marking on it. I was trying to figure out how this thing works, and we supposed to use it to check the direction.
The house was adaquent but not great. Then again we took a train ride back home. The dream faded and I got up very tired! This was another dream that did not follow through of its course. I thought of dream re-entry of shamanic approach. Could it be possible to know what we were trying to accomplish by going back to the dream and explore deeper onto the message it might bring?
Mom, my two sisters were with me, we were on our way to see a house located in the state of Missouri. We took on a train ride very conveniently take us right to the house. I remember there was a conductor making conversation with us along the way, although the content was not clear. In order to prevent getting lost, my younger sister and mom was a team, the other sister and me was another team, taking care of each other. We got into the house, and inspected the layout, there were at least two bedroom downstairs, and bedrooms were situated adjacent to each other. We stayed over night to get a feel of this house. I remember seeing a compass made out of white piece of paper, with strange dial and marking on it. I was trying to figure out how this thing works, and we supposed to use it to check the direction.
The house was adaquent but not great. Then again we took a train ride back home. The dream faded and I got up very tired! This was another dream that did not follow through of its course. I thought of dream re-entry of shamanic approach. Could it be possible to know what we were trying to accomplish by going back to the dream and explore deeper onto the message it might bring?
Friday, March 25, 2005
Mixed matched of dream pieces!
I was in the theater for China's program to train new, young stars of dancers and singers. I saw a beautiful girl, she was a teacher demonstrating her talent and skill in dancing and mostly singing. She had beautiful voice.
My sister and I were spectators of all these, there were many young girls surrounding that teacher. The teacher's performance was impeccable.
Then the scene changed to an expansive grass of outdoor. Our company was having a conference, so we gathered together on the lawn next to our office building to discuss some issues. But what were the issues that we were discussing, I have no impression.
A figure, a person, giving a lecture, and I was flipping through my journal to get a match of the date of lecture. The reason of my finding a match was not clear.
When I got up about 6:30am , I felt completely exhustive and extremely tired.
I did not feel tired for the last several days when I could not remember any trace of my dream. Could it possible that the act of remembering of my dreams can consume a good amount of my energy?
All the above frament of dreams have one thing in common, it is incomplete. It is as if I were reading random segments of a novel without knowing the whole story. I am wondering, with the re-entry of dream as Mr. Moss suggested, could I retrive other pieces of the puzzle and see a whole picture of my dreams? There are so much to learn and so little time to learn it.
"All things are of the substance of dreams"
My sister and I were spectators of all these, there were many young girls surrounding that teacher. The teacher's performance was impeccable.
Then the scene changed to an expansive grass of outdoor. Our company was having a conference, so we gathered together on the lawn next to our office building to discuss some issues. But what were the issues that we were discussing, I have no impression.
A figure, a person, giving a lecture, and I was flipping through my journal to get a match of the date of lecture. The reason of my finding a match was not clear.
When I got up about 6:30am , I felt completely exhustive and extremely tired.
I did not feel tired for the last several days when I could not remember any trace of my dream. Could it possible that the act of remembering of my dreams can consume a good amount of my energy?
All the above frament of dreams have one thing in common, it is incomplete. It is as if I were reading random segments of a novel without knowing the whole story. I am wondering, with the re-entry of dream as Mr. Moss suggested, could I retrive other pieces of the puzzle and see a whole picture of my dreams? There are so much to learn and so little time to learn it.
"All things are of the substance of dreams"
Thursday, March 24, 2005
"Conscious Dreaming" from Robert Moss
The last several days I have not remembered any trace of dream. One night, I got up with no recall of any dreams whatsoever. Then, last night, I heard alarm sounded at 5:00am, but I just shut it off and went back to sleep. I was disappointed of myself. I think I am highly motivated as far as my conscious dream training, but my motivation did not carry its weight through my dream world.
I am reading a book called Conscious Dreaming, from Robert Moss. A serious dream work that using dreams for spiritual development. I am particularly interested in Shaman's dream work. This is not the first time I have read about shaman. More than a year ago, I read several books about shaman, they are much more than just conscious dreamers and healers.
I like Mr. Moss's definition of shaman, "A shamanic dreamer is a conscious dreamer who has developed the ability to enter the dreamworld at will to communicate with dream guides, to journey across time and space and into other orders of reality, and bring back gifts of healing and insight for the benefits of others." I just ordered a CD from Michael Harner's shamanic journey, I hope it can help me embark on conscious dream work.
For years, I have been fascinated the infinite number of possibilities that conscious dreaming can bring. It is time to experience the power of our mind.
"Am I Dreaming?"
I am reading a book called Conscious Dreaming, from Robert Moss. A serious dream work that using dreams for spiritual development. I am particularly interested in Shaman's dream work. This is not the first time I have read about shaman. More than a year ago, I read several books about shaman, they are much more than just conscious dreamers and healers.
I like Mr. Moss's definition of shaman, "A shamanic dreamer is a conscious dreamer who has developed the ability to enter the dreamworld at will to communicate with dream guides, to journey across time and space and into other orders of reality, and bring back gifts of healing and insight for the benefits of others." I just ordered a CD from Michael Harner's shamanic journey, I hope it can help me embark on conscious dream work.
For years, I have been fascinated the infinite number of possibilities that conscious dreaming can bring. It is time to experience the power of our mind.
"Am I Dreaming?"
Monday, March 21, 2005
Accrued Taxes in NY and MA!
I was about to awake at the tailend of my dream, suddenly I heard a sharp calling of my name from my mother. It was loud as if it was right next to my bed. My body jerked and I woke up could not rememeber much of the dream content. I stayed silent for a moment, then I realized this is what they call, hypnagogic sound.
I remember vaguly about accrued taxes. The rule was that while mom was sleeping, there was no taxes accrued in the state of Massachusettes and New York, the rest of the states would continue to accrue. Whatever that mean, I have no clue. We live in Califronia, we are familiar with New York, but why Massachusettes ? We have no relatives or friends who are even remotely close to it. I was preparing my 2004's tax return this afternoon, that was for federal and the state of California. But, New York and Massachuesettes ??
I distinctly felt there were other dreams that were more significant than this one. So, I immediately lied back down on my bed, trying various positions to see if I can remember some part of it. But after about half an hour's trying, nothing came up. It was time for me to prepare for the day.
James had an oral surgery to remove 4 wisdom teeth. The procedure went well. He will recover soon.
I was about to awake at the tailend of my dream, suddenly I heard a sharp calling of my name from my mother. It was loud as if it was right next to my bed. My body jerked and I woke up could not rememeber much of the dream content. I stayed silent for a moment, then I realized this is what they call, hypnagogic sound.
I remember vaguly about accrued taxes. The rule was that while mom was sleeping, there was no taxes accrued in the state of Massachusettes and New York, the rest of the states would continue to accrue. Whatever that mean, I have no clue. We live in Califronia, we are familiar with New York, but why Massachusettes ? We have no relatives or friends who are even remotely close to it. I was preparing my 2004's tax return this afternoon, that was for federal and the state of California. But, New York and Massachuesettes ??
I distinctly felt there were other dreams that were more significant than this one. So, I immediately lied back down on my bed, trying various positions to see if I can remember some part of it. But after about half an hour's trying, nothing came up. It was time for me to prepare for the day.
James had an oral surgery to remove 4 wisdom teeth. The procedure went well. He will recover soon.
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Inappropriate behavior!
I seldom take serious nap in Saturday afternoon. What I usually do is to meditate with music. But since I am in this dream training, I thought it might be opportunity for lucid dreaming.
I saw my son's car get worked on by our mechanic, after he fixed the problem, James tried to show appreciation, so he went over and tried to hug that guy. I thought it was not appropriate. The guy was reluctant but went along. Later on, I told James that "you do not embrace a guy like that unless he is family member or you know him quite well". So, James went back to talk and apologize to him. All went well.
The scene then abruptly changed to a whole bunch of school kids of 3-5 years old crammed into a beautiful red convertible sports car. They were actually ready for a ride. I saw that and felt it was wrong for the kids that young to drive. So, I lectured them and called upon parents for their wrong doing. Then dream faded. Was I lucid? No.
For the above two dreams, there were certain level of consciouness in play, so I thought James behavior was inapproriate, and kids 2 to 5 years should not be driving sports car. But the amount of consciousness was not enought to alert me and help me to realize that I was dreaming.
"I will experience a lucid dream tonight, and I will remember my dream"
I seldom take serious nap in Saturday afternoon. What I usually do is to meditate with music. But since I am in this dream training, I thought it might be opportunity for lucid dreaming.
I saw my son's car get worked on by our mechanic, after he fixed the problem, James tried to show appreciation, so he went over and tried to hug that guy. I thought it was not appropriate. The guy was reluctant but went along. Later on, I told James that "you do not embrace a guy like that unless he is family member or you know him quite well". So, James went back to talk and apologize to him. All went well.
The scene then abruptly changed to a whole bunch of school kids of 3-5 years old crammed into a beautiful red convertible sports car. They were actually ready for a ride. I saw that and felt it was wrong for the kids that young to drive. So, I lectured them and called upon parents for their wrong doing. Then dream faded. Was I lucid? No.
For the above two dreams, there were certain level of consciouness in play, so I thought James behavior was inapproriate, and kids 2 to 5 years should not be driving sports car. But the amount of consciousness was not enought to alert me and help me to realize that I was dreaming.
"I will experience a lucid dream tonight, and I will remember my dream"
Lost again! Spiders as my passengers!
I went for a trip in Walnut area, now I was ready to go home, but I suddenly realized that I did not remember how to get home. I went to a Senior Citizen Club to ask how to get back to my home. They had no clue either. But one of them told me to hold on and he was going to find out that for me. I waited, and waited. Then I thought I gave them wrong information, I really live in Diamond Bar, not Walnut, as if it would make a difference. The guy never came back and office is closing down because it is about 5:00pm afernoon.
So, I turn around and got into my car. Holy moly! I saw many huge spiders and spider webs all over the passenger side of the car. That was quite a shock, one of the spiders were about 7 or 8 inches long. I immediately got out of the car and said to myself, " I got to tell James about this"! I woke up from that.
While I was squibbling the journal into my notepad, I found out I lost strength of my fingers, it is as if the energy of my fingers or hand has been completely drawn out. It was quite an effort that I wrote down my journal.
Now I can see, there is a common thread of my dream. I got lost everytime I got to somewhere, even in my own neighborhood. What is that? Did I have a driving phobia? Is my sense of direction so bad, that I will even get lost in my neighborhood? Well, I admit my sense of direction is pretty bad.
As to spiders, it reminds me what James told me one time , he said that he has a contract, so to speak, with our house spiders. They have an agreement of not invading each others territory. He explained to me one night, he went to his bathroom, and saw a spider busy building the net from ceiling down in the middle of the bathroom. He just told spider out loud that "You should not be here. I need to go into this space to do my thing. I suggest you pack up and go somewhere else". So, he left the bathroom, and played some games. About may be 5 minutes, he got back to the bathroom, and he saw the spider is packing up his web and ready to leave. And soon, the spider was gone, out of sight. I thought that was fascinating! But that was not the reason I dreamed spiders.
The real reason is because the morning before, I killed a spider in my bathroom. I was really debating what I was supposed to do. In a way, with my spiritual training, I should have letting it go, God created spiders and me. If I have a reason to live, spider has a reason to live. I have no right to destroy it because he gets in the way. But in an instinct, I did it anyway. Perhaps guilt prompted the dream. May be!
So, I turn around and got into my car. Holy moly! I saw many huge spiders and spider webs all over the passenger side of the car. That was quite a shock, one of the spiders were about 7 or 8 inches long. I immediately got out of the car and said to myself, " I got to tell James about this"! I woke up from that.
While I was squibbling the journal into my notepad, I found out I lost strength of my fingers, it is as if the energy of my fingers or hand has been completely drawn out. It was quite an effort that I wrote down my journal.
Now I can see, there is a common thread of my dream. I got lost everytime I got to somewhere, even in my own neighborhood. What is that? Did I have a driving phobia? Is my sense of direction so bad, that I will even get lost in my neighborhood? Well, I admit my sense of direction is pretty bad.
As to spiders, it reminds me what James told me one time , he said that he has a contract, so to speak, with our house spiders. They have an agreement of not invading each others territory. He explained to me one night, he went to his bathroom, and saw a spider busy building the net from ceiling down in the middle of the bathroom. He just told spider out loud that "You should not be here. I need to go into this space to do my thing. I suggest you pack up and go somewhere else". So, he left the bathroom, and played some games. About may be 5 minutes, he got back to the bathroom, and he saw the spider is packing up his web and ready to leave. And soon, the spider was gone, out of sight. I thought that was fascinating! But that was not the reason I dreamed spiders.
The real reason is because the morning before, I killed a spider in my bathroom. I was really debating what I was supposed to do. In a way, with my spiritual training, I should have letting it go, God created spiders and me. If I have a reason to live, spider has a reason to live. I have no right to destroy it because he gets in the way. But in an instinct, I did it anyway. Perhaps guilt prompted the dream. May be!
Friday, March 18, 2005
Water slide - A Dream
My house in Taiwan is huge, the backyard has amusement park kind of ride. I take stairs up to one of the ride, I suddenly realize that the slope is steep. I am holding on the side bar and feel apprehensive and scared of its height. At the moment I also notice that the stairs are gone. There are only two options to get off here. One side is a water slide, the other is a plastic type of cloth that one can slide slowly down the slope. I don't know how to swim so I decide to take the other route down. It is slower, not as exciting but I can't imagine myself sliding down the water slide, well I could get drowned, you know.
Then the scene changed to a display of published e-books on the counter, look quite impressive. Is it I the publisher or someone else, I am not sure. But when I woke up, e-book publishing was ringing in my ears.
I have only one hobby, that is I enjoy reading and occasionally I also enjoy writing. Since I heard so much of people saying, you can be successful in what you do only if you enjoy what you are doing. My passion is to read, to gain knowledge and also for pure entertainment. With public library as my source of books, I have read many hundreads of books all these years. What could be more satisfying than e-book publishing that can benefit other people as well as enrich myself and doing what I love to do! Yes, e-publishing is the way!
Then the scene changed to a display of published e-books on the counter, look quite impressive. Is it I the publisher or someone else, I am not sure. But when I woke up, e-book publishing was ringing in my ears.
I have only one hobby, that is I enjoy reading and occasionally I also enjoy writing. Since I heard so much of people saying, you can be successful in what you do only if you enjoy what you are doing. My passion is to read, to gain knowledge and also for pure entertainment. With public library as my source of books, I have read many hundreads of books all these years. What could be more satisfying than e-book publishing that can benefit other people as well as enrich myself and doing what I love to do! Yes, e-publishing is the way!
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Ancient race of Markee - A Dream
Ancient race of Markee!
I was a member of Markee group, an ancient race, disciplined, royal, courageous, and honorable people. We can sometimes be aggressive and risk taking for the sake of self defense. In my dream I was a woman, earning great respect from our people.
This dream was a declaration of statement as far as what I can remembered. I do not remember any detail other than the proud feeling of that statement and a short image of group of people and myself.
My dreams are usually short. That probably has something to do with my personality. I do not enjoy mindless chatting, pointless gossiping, or small talks. If dream is the reflection of mind, then no wonder my dream would be short, hopefully to the point.
This Markee group reminds me Star Trek-The Next Generation, used to be my favorite TV series. My dream probably drew info from those episodes.
Friday, March 11, 2005
Four approaches! -A Dream
I went to bed quite late about 1:00 am last night. So, I set the alarm going off 6:30am my normal wake up hour for work. I woke up before the alarm went off, and I tried to organize my dream pieces while still lying on the bed. I had a feeling that either I was lecturing to myself or talking to other people about four approaches to life or may be four approaches to do things. I was really struggling to memorize it. Everytime I thought I got the 4 approached memorized, a few seconds later, I would lose it. I must have gone over the list several times. Here is my impression of these four approaches.
1. Prioritize things to do, and procrastinate those unimportant ones.
2. Random selections of things to do, go with the flow.
3. Do things based on the demand of others.
4 Do things in the sequence of chronological order.
I woke up after this information, there was no long drawn detail about these approaches, short and sweet.
I can tell why I put prioritize things to do first. It may be selfish, but I am in favor of being true to myself. Lately, I feel I am a bit overloaded in my job. Despite the demand of a job, I still take time to do my inner work during lunch hour, and I never ever skip a lunch. I know that my inner work is more important than just make a living. The fact that I was making a presentation out of it could indicate my commitment to my inner growth. Dream is a reflection of our mind. How true!
A lucid dream? No, only a dream.
"Am I dreaming?"
1. Prioritize things to do, and procrastinate those unimportant ones.
2. Random selections of things to do, go with the flow.
3. Do things based on the demand of others.
4 Do things in the sequence of chronological order.
I woke up after this information, there was no long drawn detail about these approaches, short and sweet.
I can tell why I put prioritize things to do first. It may be selfish, but I am in favor of being true to myself. Lately, I feel I am a bit overloaded in my job. Despite the demand of a job, I still take time to do my inner work during lunch hour, and I never ever skip a lunch. I know that my inner work is more important than just make a living. The fact that I was making a presentation out of it could indicate my commitment to my inner growth. Dream is a reflection of our mind. How true!
A lucid dream? No, only a dream.
"Am I dreaming?"
Thursday, March 10, 2005
Dream as a progress report of life
I am reading a booked called: Dreaming your real self by Joan Mazza. It's an excellent book about dream, using dreams to understand ourselves. After several chapters, I started to explore my dream journals in this blog page. I feel there are other possible interpretations of my dreams.
Keeping a dream journal, Joan suggested, it's a good idea to flash back what happened during the day. Often times, dreams are the reflection or deframentation of our current life situation. By going over what happen in our daily activites, the message, meaning and lesson of the dream could reveal itself. As she puts it : "Dream is a progress report of our current life situation."
"All things are of the substance of dreams"
Keeping a dream journal, Joan suggested, it's a good idea to flash back what happened during the day. Often times, dreams are the reflection or deframentation of our current life situation. By going over what happen in our daily activites, the message, meaning and lesson of the dream could reveal itself. As she puts it : "Dream is a progress report of our current life situation."
"All things are of the substance of dreams"
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
A Banquet ?
My company was engaging in some kind of contest or fund raising of cooking. I was appointed a coordinator. I remembered going around telling everyone the procedures to follow. We had all kind of dishes, but strangely, I only remember tasting ice cream made by my boss. and there was an outside contractor present in the fund raising process. What function it served, I had no memory. Then I remember my home's wooden floor was flooded, all wet ..... I had trouble connecting dots of this dream. It did not make any sense, no central theme, and it's trivial. I woke up feeling disconnected with all these dream pieces.
I WILL experience an AMAZING lucid dream tonight!
I WILL experience an AMAZING lucid dream tonight!
Monday, March 07, 2005
No news is good news
There is not much news in my lucid dream training. I still do not recall any dreams after the 4 and 1/2 hour wakening. Deep inside, I know that there are lots of activites flashing in my dream mind, but the usual heavy veil of sleepiness prevent my conscious mind from uncovering its content.
My better luck is from the next 90-minute interval. I am using an affirmation throughout the day " My conscious mind is always available to me in my dream". Our conscious mind is a critical factor in the training. For all of my dreams, my conscious mind is always out for lunch or take a leave of abscence, it is never there! How can I have my conscious mind to participate in my night venture? I have no answer. Awareness and expansion of our conscious mind into the realm of unconscious will take time, dedication and patience. They literally reside in complete different dimensions. They can interpenetrate each other but only through diligent training. Well, to get to where I want to be, I have no choice but keep trying.
"My Conscious mind is always available to assist me in my dream"
Am I dreaming?
My better luck is from the next 90-minute interval. I am using an affirmation throughout the day " My conscious mind is always available to me in my dream". Our conscious mind is a critical factor in the training. For all of my dreams, my conscious mind is always out for lunch or take a leave of abscence, it is never there! How can I have my conscious mind to participate in my night venture? I have no answer. Awareness and expansion of our conscious mind into the realm of unconscious will take time, dedication and patience. They literally reside in complete different dimensions. They can interpenetrate each other but only through diligent training. Well, to get to where I want to be, I have no choice but keep trying.
"My Conscious mind is always available to assist me in my dream"
Am I dreaming?
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